Flyer for school / daycare

I just wanted to share a flyer I found online in case you want to use it as well. I’m going to print one to keep at home (for the babysitter) and one for his pre-school. Because I.S. babies are prone to developing other seizures, I just want to be sure his caregivers know what to look for and what to do. I’m also going to put our phone number and the doctor’s phone number on it, and I might even write a note to remind them to use their cell phone to video it, or if not video, at least keep an eye on the clock and time it.  Here’s hoping they NEVER have to refer to it, but they’ll have the info, just in case.  Thankfully our pre-school teacher has dealt with this before, so it makes me feel a little more confident that she’ll know how to handle it.  😉


Checkup… and weaning OFF another medication!

It has been a glorious 2 months since our last neuro appointment.  It’s the longest we’ve gone without seeing a doc or going to the hospital since this all began late last June, which is a very, very, very good thing!  We didn’t even have to do an EEG this time since we haven’t seen any seizure activity.

Z was highly entertaining in the doctor’s office.  I was going to say he was in rare form, but that’s not true these days.  He was up and down, wiggling and giggling, and had an absolute ball crinkling the paper on the bed.  After a long wait in the room, and discussions with the resident, he was even still awake and going strong when Dr. V. came in.  That was fun, because so often by the time she gets in the room, he has long since crashed and gone to sleep.  She talked to him, held him, and seemed excited about his progress, as are we!

She even decided to move forward weaning him off his last IS medication… the Sabril.  He is officially on only one anti-epileptic drug now, which is a huge feat considering at one point he was on about 7 different mediations and treatments at once for the IS and it’s related symptoms.  He did have some small focal seizures during his last EEG, so he will remain on topiramate indefinitely… well, until he is 2 years seizure free on the medicine.

He will go back to the hospital for a 23-hour EEG in a couple of months, just to check everything out.  Seems weird that it’s a 23-hour EEG not 24-hours, right?  That’s just a loophole with insurance because of how they charge for a full day (ie. 24  hours).

Anyway… things are going well for baby Z at this point.  He’s still behind, and even our extended family doesn’t seem to quite comprehend that, judging from some of the questions and comments I’ve seen in email or on fb, etc.  It’s hard, and getting harder as he grows, to explain to strangers in a relatively short manner why he won’t hold his own bottle or why he’s not crawling or walking, etc.  But, none of that even matters to us after all he’s been through.  We’re just so happy to be able to look in his eyes and see a smile on his face!


Making Progress

We had a visit with our neuro today, and then had another EEG.  Unfortunately they had to schedule the visit before the EEG, so I haven’t gotten confirmation that the EEG is still “normal”.  But, his progress leads me to believe it is.


The APRN (advanced practice registered nurse) who is very knowledgeable with IS, saw Z and was telling the resident how great baby Z was progressing.  He said, “you should have seen him a month ago before starting the ACTH.  He was more like a 1 or 2 month old.”  Sad, but true.  But, now, look at him, holding up his head.  They mentioned he’s probably at a 4 month old’s level, which is a lot of progress for a little guy to make in 4 weeks.  I know he’s got a long way to go, but he’s just doing so well!  I know it’s strange to be celebrating an 8 month old holding up his head, or smiling, but that just shows you how bad it had gotten.  😦

The resident was from the adult neuro dept, but was on a pedi rotation, so wasn’t very familiar with babies and IS.  You could tell he didn’t quite know what questions to ask or how to interact with little ones.  But, in talking to him, he realized he knew more than he thought he knew about baby Z.  He is a friend of the resident who first saw the video I just happened on a whim to send to my friend who is the adult neuro nurse, and he saw the video when she had shown the attending (who is now our wonderful neuro).


We started the weaning process from ACTH this afternoon.  So, I just can’t help but do everything I can to help/hope that the meds did what they needed to do permanently.  I feel like I’m crossing my fingers and toes, knocking on wood, and of course, praying like mad.  He has hardly had any side effects, so I wish he could stay on it forever.  But, unfortunately that’s not how it works.


I asked some other moms what happened after they weaned their little ones off ACTH, and these are some of the responses I got:

“My sons returned 2 weeks after wean. Our neuro chose to try Vigabatrin next instead of repeating ACTH. We still don’t have control at max dose, just a reduction. Checking into candidacy for surgery and may add oral steroids to see if it will knock them out. Going for our weekly EEG in the morning to see what we’re going to do.”

“Atticus started ACTH June 15. By June 26 we could no longer visibly see any spasms. Sept 3 was his last injection. Sept 10 his EEG came back normal. I am happy to report that Atticus is still spasm FREE!!!!’ That’s over 4 months now. Don’t give up hope. When one door closes, another always opens. Praying ACTH worked for you xo”

“My son took 30 units twice a day for 2 weeks, then tapered to 20, 10, 10 once a day, 10 every other day. The whole thing took 4 weeks. He was seizure free after the first dose. He’s been off it for 1 month now and has a normal EEG. An EEG during the taper showed no hyps but did contain a slow wave- that’s now normalized. It seems like there’s many different dosing schedules that all are considered potentially helpful. How are your baby’s brain waves right now?”

“My daughter was on ACTH and was seizure free for a little while but they came back and we tried the diet and Meds was seizure free again. But they came back and the Nero noticed that they are just on one side so we did the surgery was seizure free for over a year but came back and did the diet again seizure free but they came back so now we r on 4 different Meds talking about the diet again”

“We did ACTH for one month and are now on prednisone for 3 months and weaning. EEG was normal after one month of ACTH and we go back for an 8 hour EEG nov 19th. If there are any spikes we are not trying ACTH again and moving to sabril.”

“My son, Tripp was diagnosed with IS at 4 months. We are in our fourth week with the ACTH injections and have seen no more signs of the IS. Unfortunately, he has started having other seizures, we have seen three different kinds. They told us Wednesday that is was Epileptic Encephalopathy and his prognosis was not good. He also has a diagnosis of Optic Nerve Hypoplasia, but they were unable to find a symptomatic cause for the IS. Has anyone else been diagnosed with other seizure disorders?”

“Update on Billy.. seizure free for 4 months, started up again suddenly 5 weeks ago, keppra been upped & upped & upped, hes on his maximum dose for his weight/age now and he still having clusters throughout the day. I dont know why ? :(”

“Have any of you had your child’s IS start really early? My son was a little shy of turning 3 months when diagnosed, so hasn’t really met any developmental milestones…not even holding his head up and he’s over 6 months now. He doesn’t interact with me, smile, or even move a whole lot. Still trying to get control of the spasms with Vigabatrin and finally got an admit date for the keto diet on Oct. 29th. I know he’ll be delayed and I can deal with that, its just that I feel like I’ve lost my baby completely. For him to not even look at me much, show recognition of me in his face, or smile at me tears my heart to pieces daily. Anyone else’s child been like this?”

Then, other moms have come back years later with posts/pictures like these:

“I so clearly remember diagnosis day and being told my baby girl would never walk……she was running, laughing and having so much fun looking for leaves. Never give up hope, our babies are so strong!”

“5 yrs old healthy as a horse my little miracle man:) keep the faith moms n dads-you will get through this! Love and prayers to all of you!”

“My little boy was diagnosed with IS in April this year and to date is doing well! He is 6 months seizure free after success with ACTH! I just wondered is anyone else’s little ones very restless sleepers with IS! We’re getting up to him a few times each night! He wakes himself up wriggling around the cot to the point his pj bottoms came off in his sleeping bag and then he squeals the house down!! Maybe he’s just a terrible sleeper but just curious!!”

“Hi, just a positive story to share, my son (currently 3years 3months old) was diagnosed with infantile spasms at 7months old, got treated with two courses of ACTH Injections, then onto Epilem, and then onto Lamotrigine, Joel has been SEIZURE FREE as two years now, and is currently going thro the ‘weaning’ process to bring him OFF the medication, there is always the risk they may come back, but we can only think positive, he has been left with some brain damage, which has led to learning difficulties and global development delay and current screening for the ASD spectrum, but he’s a happy little boy who is out mixing with ‘normal’ kids at nursery and hopefully he will continue to thrive and grow!! Never give up..there is ALWAYS a chance the child can ‘outgrow’ it!! The picture is Joel now with his big sister ♥ so proud of him!!”

“A year ago today my son was diagnosed with IS. After a long 4 1/2 months we got the seizures stopped and haven’t seen on since. 7 1/2 months later I’m thankful for doing the research I did to find the wonderful doctor in Detroit that got my sons IS to stop when two other doctors couldn’t. I also am thankful for God pointing me in that directions even if it was an 18 hour drive!”

“Me again sorry!! We got results from zacks MRI the other day and whilst he has been having these spasms/ seizures for over 9 months now, he has absolutely NO brain damage 🙂 just thought I’d give some hope to anyone in particular worrying about brain damage. Not to say it can’t happen, but I’m over the moon as I thought for sure with his seizures there would be damage.”

“Michael has been seizure free for over two months now and we are so thankful but also so nervous! Does anyone have any idea of milestones we could be looking forward to in terms of not relapsing. Like how long do they have to go before they are in the clear or where the statistic drops lower… Thank you all for the support!!”

“For those of you who haven’t experienced the “new baby” I just want to let everyone know that it happened over night for us. The last two days we have a “new baby” I’ve never seen him happier in my life!!!! Before this he showed ZERO happiness, no emotion, except for crying, and he’s doing so much more than ever and his progress is 100%. PLEASE STAY STRONG, GUYS! It’ll happen! Pray pray pray!!! I’m praying for all of us in this group.”



I feel like it’s all over the map.  Some babies relapse.  Some don’t.  Some go on to have other types of seizures.  Some don’t.  Some go on to lead completely normal lives.  Some don’t.  There’s really no telling.  So, I’m praying like mad because I don’t know what else to do.


Update on Ketogenic Diet

Baby Z was still having some slight seizures on the 3:1 ratio, so we went up to the 3.5:1 ratio.  Unfortunately, over a day or two, he became lethargic and his ketones were too high (meaning his blood sugar was too low).  So, we had to give him a tiny bit of apple juice, and went back to the 3:1 ratio.
I do think the diet helped, but it didn’t resolve the spasms completely.  So, we decided to proceed to ACTH.  We can always go back to the diet, but we need to get rid of the spasms (and hypsarrhythmia on EEG) completely if possible, and the ACTH is our best chance.

3rd day of Keto Diet

Once again, we started what we thought was going to be an easy day on the diet.  Here’s my little guy this morning, just wanting to be held and cuddled.


Then, his EEG probes were removed.


Unfortunately, it wasn’t that easy.  Instead, it looked like one of the probes had a sore.  It looked like it has blistered and broke open. Poor little guy.  No wonder he was in a crabby mood yesterday.  His poor little head was probably hurting and he couldn’t tell us.  I feel terrible that he was hurting and we didn’t even know.  Ugh.


That morning, he started breathing strangely again. He had actually started that way back when we started the Sabril, and I don’t know if it was related to  the new drug or not, but it was literally 12 hours after starting the new med.  Back then, I had talked to our neuro about it, who did not think it was related, so she recommended I take baby Z to a pediatrician in case he was getting a cold.  The pedi could hear it and was concerned, so she did a throat x-ray.  The radiologist said that the x-ray showed either an infection or a developmental issue.  The pedi used a tongue depressor and flashlight to look down his throat but could not see an infection, so she referred us out to an ENT.  I called several ENT’s on the list our pedi had given us, but the earliest of them had a 2-3 week wait.  Except for one who could get us in a couple days later.  So, even though he didn’t specialize in kids (he saw kids, but didn’t specialize in them), I took the appointment.  But, he really didn’t do much.  Of course, during that appointment, baby Z wasn’t having any issues.  So, he used a tongue depressor, but basically said it wasn’t anything and sent us on our way.  Since then, it would come and go, but we decided not to stress over it since he had been checked.  But, when it started happening while we were in the hospital, I thought we might as well have it checked again.  I talked about it to a resident, who listened to his chest and determined that he did not have a crackle (which would indicate pneumonia).  She said that it’s not uncommon for babies to have soft cartilage in his throat, which can make it collapse.  But, his pulsox was fine, so it wasn’t causing any problems.  That’s basically what the pedi and ENT had determined a month or so ago. So, I considered the issue was dropped.

The dietitian and the neurologist’s assistant came by to talk and answer some questions.  They were really great, and answered everything I asked.  They were really, really great.  But, in trying to give me the information I needed, they started to overwhelm me.  They started telling me about all the negative things that could {likely} happen in the future.  I have already read all that stuff, but it’s different reading it about someone else’s child, and hearing it about your own child.  They explained that babies with this condition usually go on to have other kinds of seizures.  A lot of times they develop psychological and behavioral problems, may have developmental delay, could be more prone to autism.  I guess I just keep trying to be positive and hopeful that we are helping him.  Right now it’s easy, because he’s a baby and so far isn’t that far behind.  I mean, babies lay around and because he looks healthy, there’s no real indication that there’s a problem.  But, as he grows and it’s more obvious that he should be sitting/crawing/standing/walking, it’s going to become more difficult to pretend everything is okay.  They also told me that infantile spasms will eventually go away on their own, with no medication or treatment.  But, it’s not good when that happens… as in REALLY not good, because those kids have a lot of really bad problems.  So, it’s a good thing that we are doing all we can so early on.  They did mention that they were impressed at the research I’ve done and how much I know and understand, and they said that will serve baby Z well.  They said that some parents just can’t make a decision, get overwhelmed and don’t end up doing anything.  But, what they don’t know is that’s what I feel like doing.  I feel like curling into a ball in bed and crying. But, I don’t have time for that because he’s my baby and I have to do what I can for him.  Anyway, it was a rough conversation.


A little while after they left, the nurse came in and told me not to feed him any more and that he was going for a swallow study.  The nurse has a french accent and I had to clarify, but sure enough, I heard him right.  Basically, the nutritionist and neurologist decided to have the swallow study done to make sure baby Z wasn’t going to aspirate his new formula.  Because the new ketogenic formula is so high in fat, it can be more problematic if aspirated into the lungs.  So, we held off on the feedings, and 2 escorts came to help us get to the right place for the swallow study.  When we arrived, they had just taken another patient into the room, so we had to wait.  It wouldn’t have been a problem, except my little guy was getting really hungry.  So he waited a couple of minutes, but then let loose and started screaming for food.  I was trying to calm him, but nothing was helping.  When they finally got us into the room for the test, they were trying to explain the test to me over a screaming baby.  I tried to get the gist of it and they let me slip on a shield so I could stay and watch.  If it wasn’t *my* child, it would have been really interesting.  But, seeing your child’s insides on a computer screen is just weird and wrong.  They started feeding him the {glucose free} barium, and he was starving, so he gladly took it.  Clear as day you could see it on the monitor going down his throat.  Until it didn’t.  Yup.  He aspirated… and he *didn’t* cough.  That’s a problem.  Then they took that consistency of barium away, and gave him the next consistency, which they called “nectar”.  It was just a little thicker, and baby Z took that one just fine with no aspirating.  Phew.  But, they only gave him enough to make sure he wasn’t aspirating, and then the test was done.  I picked up baby Z and was walking out of the room and the doctor told me she would call and talk to our dietitian.  As soon as we walked out of the testing room, they closed the doors behind me, and the doctor and everyone somehow disappeared.  I was left with a hungry, crying baby, and had absolutely no idea where I was.  It was kinda like a horror movie, with these long, nondescript hospital hallways.  I started walking and tried my best to remember how I got there, but I wan’t doing very well.  Baby Z just kept getting louder and louder, and I kept getting more and more emotional.  I thought that we were coming just for a basic watch as he started a new formula.  Easy-peasy, right?  But, nothing about this has been easy.

Someone pointed me in the right direction and I eventually made it back.  But, by then Z was crying and I was sobbing and we were a freaking mess. When we got back to the room, I pulled the curtain, fed my baby, and just sobbed and sobbed.  Then I heard the camera turn so it could see us, and I soooo wanted to rip the camera off the wall.  It is so unnerving to be watched all the time, and especially when you need a moment to pull yourself together.  UUUGGGGHHHH.

Then, unknowingly, the neuro resident came in to talk to us and I was still sobbing, and a mess.  I had to ask her to give me a minute.  When she came back in, she told me baby Z was now going to have a chest x-ray to make sure he didn’t have anything in his lungs.  But, the x-ray came to our room, so at least we didn’t have to get lost in the hospital.  Then the dietitian came to our room and explained that the thickener they used to have is no longer available so she needed to find another option and would have to re-balance the formula to account for the new carbs in the thickener.  But, I told her she needed to bring us something for the night so baby Z could eat, wouldn’t aspirate, and then she could finalize the new balance tomorrow.  Thankfully she agreed and brought some thickener in right away.

Then the pediatric team came over to take a look at baby Z and check him out.  They reviewed the chest x-ray and decided to put him on a reflux medication.  That’s when I stopped them.  I explained that my daughter had reflux.  I know what reflux looks like.  She would spit up… A LOT!  We went through lots of formulas before finally finding one that would work for her.  She had to sleep with a pillow under her mattress and had to take medication.  Baby Z does not have any of that, and I don’t want him getting another medication unless it’s truly necessary.  But, then they explained.  Basically, when a thin liquid goes down the throat to the stomach, there’s a sphincter that closes off to keep it down.  But, all babies have some sort of reflux because the sphincter isn’t tight enough.  Some babies don’t have any outward symptoms of it (like the symptoms my daughter had shown).  When the liquid is thin, it easily moves back up past the not-fully-closed sphincter and can go down the windpipe.  But, when the liquid or food is thicker and heavier, gravity helps keep it down so it doesn’t come back up as easily. So, the thickener in the formula combined with the reflux meds should get him the help he needs.  The dietitian just has some work to re-balance the 3:1 ketogenic ratio, because both the thickener and the additional medicine add carbs (and remember, even a tiny little bit of carbs can throw off the whole balance of this really strict diet.)


2nd day of Keto Diet

It seems like it should have been an easy day, but I think in general when you’re in the hospital, no day is an easy day.  Last night, baby Z was poked every 2 hours for blood sugar.  They just prick the fingers (or in his case, the toes), like you see on the commercials for diabetes.  He was so exhausted from getting the IV and getting his blood drawn yesterday, that he actually slept through the pokes during the night.  But, he was up at 2 a.m. for a feeding (which may become our new normal because he’ll need to eat more often on this diet).

Today though, his IV came out, so they had to put another back in, and they needed another vial of blood too.  At least the nurses learned from yesterday that he really is a hard stick, so they called the transport team to come do it.  Even they had a hard time, but they finally got it in, and they actually listened when I told them NOT to pull pressure to draw the blood, so they let it drip into the vial and that worked much better.  image

Baby Z took the whole thing well.  In fact, he took it too “well”.  He didn’t cry when they put the band around his arm before the poke, nor did he cry during the actual poke, and she had to push the needle in, pull it partially out, re-push it in, pull it out, over and over, and still didn’t get the IV in.  So then her partner found another spot and did the same thing, but they finally got it.  But, baby Z didn’t cry during any of it.  It was actually quite depressing, because it was like he lost the will to cry because he couldn’t control the situation, he couldn’t get away, and his own mother wouldn’t help him.  UGH.  My poor, sweet baby.  I try to tell him over and over how I am trying to help him, and that I’m so sorry when they poke him.  I wish he could understand just how much I love him and want to help him.  But, all he knows is that *I* am the one who is always here when bad stuff happens to him.  He won’t even look at me after.  😦  But, I just try to snuggle and hold him and talk to him about what is going on, and tell him over and over how much I love him.

Even though he didn’t cry during the blood work, he had a rough day.  He cried a lot.  A LOT.  He didn’t want his food, his paci, or anything.  But, he did want to be held a lot, so that’s what we did most of the day.

The neurologist told us that he is having less clinical seizures (the ones we can see) and is having more sub-clinical seizures (the ones that aren’t noticeable).  He is still showing hypsarrhythmia in the background of the EEG. But, the neuro said it is moving in the right direction.  So, I guess that’s something.  


As far as the diet, today he started having more of the ketogenic formula than the regular formula.  He’s still not making ketones, but maybe in a day or two.  His blood sugar checks and specific gravity have been fine.  Tomorrow afternoon he’ll transition to all ketogenic formula, and we’ll learn when and how to prepare real food at a 3:1 ratio.  We’ll also get a list of approved products to use for pain/fever medicine, teething medicine, lotion, shampoo, toothpaste, etc.  His real food will consist of 3 parts fat (butter, cream, etc) to 1 part protein+carbs, so it should make for some unique recipes.  It requires a very precise digital scale, not just to 1 gram, but to 0.1 grams.  I ordered it from the Charlie Foundation, per the recommendation of our dietitian.  If you need one, look for it half way down the page here:

Abby and Joel came by tonight, and it was good to see them both.  I wish we could see them more, but it’s just so hard to get Abby enough sleep coming down here each night, with Joel in traffic to get home, pick her up and then head all the way into the city, stay a bit, then head home.  She’s been through a lot, and I’m not sure if it’s the stress, the new daycare, having a really busy weekend, or just being in school (or all of the above), but I’m crossing fingers that she stays healthy, because tonight she was complaining about her ear hurting, and she sounds a little congested.  Joel really needs to be at his “new” job, but obviously I can’t take her to the Dr., so hopefully she stays healthy and kicks whatever she’s getting.  Needless to say, I didn’t let her hug and kiss on her brother, which is really hard for her, but at least she understands!

Here’s our less than homey digs. lol



Sabril 11-day Update

I talked to the neurologist on Monday.  Well, I technically talked to her nurse and her assistant.  But, we adjusted his night-time dosage of Sabril to 10 ml.

Yesterday he had a really good day.  Hardly any seizures!  Plus, I started to see more activity on his right side which had definitely started lacking.  (If you remember, before all this started, he was favoring his right side, and then over time, was hardly using that side.   He had even started slumping to the right in his high chair, as if he didn’t have the strength to hold up that side.  It made sense, since the focal activity is in his left brain.  But, yesterday, all the sudden he started using the right side again.  It’s not like he automatically has all his motion back, but it was a definite improvement!  He even had a {very brief}  smile for his dad.

Today was good too, but not quite as good as yesterday.  He was still using his right side.  But, he did have a few more seizures, although they were still  just the quick ones.

I hope we continue to see improvements!  We’ll see what the EEG says when we do all the testing next week.

Sabril 7-day Update

Baby Z has been taking the Sabril for one full week now. He did 3 days at 3 ml, 3 days at 5 ml, and then transitioned to 7 ml. So far, it definitely has helped reduce the length of seizures, and even the quantity. However, from what I’ve read, helping isn’t enough. So the fact that he continues to have seizures is still a problem for his development, and will cause him to regress.

re·gress (r -gr s ). v. re·gressed, re·gress·ing, re·gress·es. v.intr. 1. To go back; move backward. 2. To return to a previous, usually worse or less developed state.

We need to STOP these seizures!  I’ll be chatting with the neurologist tomorrow!

Not perfect, but we have HOPE!

Well, after baby Z got his second dose of Sabril, which was yesterday morning, he started crying and screaming, and continued all day long.  Poor little guy.  He was absolutely miserable.

I called in to the neurologist’s office, talked to the nurse, and my neurologist promptly called me back.  She said some people are more sensitive than others, and she had me reduce the dosage and bring him up more slowly.

The good news is that he has hardly had any seizures, and the ones he has had have been very minor!  So, we have HOPE!

New Medication: Sabril (vigabatrin)

Well, our new neurologist ordered a new medication for baby Z to fight these spasms. It’s called Sabril (vigabatrin). It’s a very specialized medication, so it can’t be ordered from any pharmacy. It only comes from the company itself, through it’s SHARE program. It should be here within a couple of days. I hope it’s baby Z’s magic drug!

Hmmm. Epilepsy or Infantile Spasms?

Our appointment with the neurologist (Dr. H) is this morning, and since I know that as often as he does have seizures, that he probably won’t have one during the time we are with the neurologist, so I decided to prepare by waiting and watching and getting a good video.  His seizures have changed, so I want to be able to show the doc.  I have also been doing my own research, just trying to understand a little bit of what is happening and trying to figure out how to help my little guy.  I’ve filled a 2-inch binder full of print-outs, notes, etc.  I hope I’m wrong, but I really want her to re-consider her diagnosis.  He isn’t responding to any of the three anti-seizure medications he is on (Trileptal, Clonazepam, & Keppra), and he continues to have more and more seizures.  From the research I’ve read, I’m concerned that he might have Infantile Spasms, rather than just epilepsy.  If you don’t know anything about epilepsy or Infantile Spasms, you might not realize the difference, but it is significant.  Basically, Infantile Spasms can cause the little one to regress (become mentally retarded).  But, if it’s caught and treated early enough, there’s a good chance the baby can progress and develop normally.

Why am I (just a mom) questioning a doctor (a neurologist, no less)?  Well.  I don’t know.  I wish I didn’t feel the need to.  But, I feel like all signs are pointing me toward this diagnosis and she’s just not seeing it.  She’s fixated on the EEG he had 2 weeks ago and the 30-minute worthless repeat.

Okay.  I need to tell you that I have been doing a LOT of research.  I mean, a LOT!  I realize that Infantile Spasms has a very specific pattern on the EEG called Hypsarrhythmia.  But, I’ve also read that an IS diagnosis is based on three criteria, but only 2 of 3 need to be met.  He most definitely meets the other two.

I just want her to watch the video and see the seizure activity.

Here’s the seizure from last night.  It starts about 16 seconds into the video.

I also stumbled upon a youtube video of a baby with IS that had seizures that are almost identical to my little one’s.  So, then I started searching Youtube for Infantile Spasms, and I started seeing LOTS of videos of babies who had seizures like my little guy.  I know that this particular “research” might not sound very reliable, but all these babies had seizures just like my baby’s, and they all had an IS diagnosis.  I just really hope she listens to me and watches the video.

2nd Trip to the ER

Baby Z had been taking his medication, but the seizures kept coming and coming.   By Sunday night, they were coming every 2 hours apart, then every hour apart.  We spoke to the on-call neurologist, who had us give him an extra full dose, but still the seizures continued.

Because it was rush hour and heading toward the middle of Houston could cause us to get stuck in traffic, I decided to go to the nearest Texas Children’s Hospital.  It was at the same location as the neurologist, so I figured she could stop by and see him.

When we arrived, I signed in, and thankfully because he was a baby and I had put down that he was having seizures, we didn’t wait long in the waiting area.  But, as soon as we started to walk back, he started having another seizure.  It was a mad rush of nurses and doctors getting him into the room and getting him oxygen and an IV.  They gave him meds to stop the seizure, and we waited.

Here is baby Z in my arms in the ER.


We were admitted to the hospital, but just for the rest of the day to make sure his vitals were back where they needed to be.  But, it turned into an overnight stay.  Here he is admitted to his room.


By the next morning, his vitals were good, and we were almost ready to go home, but he started having another seizure.  So, they wanted to transfer him to the Texas Children’s Hospital in the medical center.  (I hadn’t realized at that time just how different a suburban hospital was from the medical center hospitals, but I learned very quickly!)

They needed to take him by ambulance, in case anything happened on the way, and they told me they were taking him to critical care, one step below the ICU.  Unfortunately, they didn’t have room for me and my daughter, so I had to follow the ambulance 30 miles or so into the city.  I tried to hold it together for my daughter’s sake, but I didn’t.  I couldn’t.  I cried the entire way.  Seeing your baby on a gurney, loaded into an ambulance, and taken to critical care in the med center will seriously mess you up.  I wish I could get that image out of my mind.

Since it wasn’t a life-threatening emergency, the ambulance drivers went the speed limit and they knew I was following behind.  So, when we arrived at the hospital, they flagged me down and told me where to go to valet, so I could be with my little one as they took him to his room.  I know they had told me we were going to the Critical Care Unit, but I didn’t really know what to expect, and I wish someone could have prepared me.  Although, I don’t know that anyone could have prepared me for what I was about to see.  They halls were lined with huge photographs (20″x24″) of babies and children that had been there in years past.  But, they weren’t cute pictures of healthy babies and kids.  They were pictures of really sick kids with tubes and bandages and casts.  But, still I was focused on my little one on the gurney in front of me.  Until they wheeled us into the room.  You see, it wasn’t the cushy, private room like we had last time.  It was what they called a “pod”.  It was a large room with a station in the middle with all the gear the nurses might need, and four “rooms”, two on each side of the station, with curtains as separators.  Three of the four were full, and my little guy made the fourth.  It was chaotic, with the kids, parents, televisions, nurses, and all the beeping that goes along with keeping kids in critical care well.

It was NOT what I had expected, and it was scary as hell.  These kids were really ill!

Thankfully, I accidentally overheard someone tell someone else that we were there because the hospital we transferred from wanted my little guy watched by neurology, but the neurology floor was full.  (Yes, folks, Texas Children’s hospital in Houston has an entire floor dedicated to neurology patients, and it was FULL.)  The docs at the suburban hospital thought my baby needed more watching than a standard hospital room could provide, so they put us in Critical Care.  When I asked about that, they didn’t seem to want to confirm that, but someone finally did.  I’m not sure why, because that actually made me feel better knowing that he wasn’t so ill that he needed to be one step below ICU, but he was just there because of logistical reasons.

Anyway, we were there, and there was nothing else I could do.  So I pulled my curtain for a little privacy, tucked my sleeping little guy in his blanket in the crib, sat in the reclining chair that would be my bed for the next 4 nights, and tried to keep the tears from falling just from the pure stress of it all.


2nd Seizure… Trip to the ER

Baby Z had his second seizure. This time it lasted longer and I knew it wasn’t normal. It lasted long enough for me to recognize something was wrong, pick him up, walk him through the house, open the back door, flag down my husband who was in the farthest corner of our yard mowing, have him walk over, and then we both discussed the possibilities. But, even though it seemed like a long time, it was probably only a minute or maybe two.It didn’t seem like an emergency, so I called the on-call pediatrician. I talked to the on-call nurse first, and explained what had happened. It took a long time for the on-call pediatrician to call us back. In fact, the nurse had told me to wait 15-20 minutes for the call, and I had to call in several times to let them know I hadn’t yet gotten a call. So, they kept re-paging the doc, and finally I heard back. The on-call pediatrician listened to the symptoms and calmly explained to me to go to the ER, but not to just the closest ER, but directly to Texas Children’s Hospital in the medical center. So, I tried to calmly pack up enough bottles to last a while (since you never know how long you’ll be in the ER) and I left my husband and daughter at home until I got more information.When I arrived, I ended up circling the hospital 3 times until I could figure out where to park. You see, the Houston medical center is a very intimidating place if you don’t know your way around. When I finally parked and entered the hospital, I was in a daze and still didn’t know where to go. They did get me in very fast though. Once we got to the room, we were visited by a nurse, and then later, a resident. (It’s a teaching hospital.) I think they both thought I was CRAZY. Because, here, in front of them was a beautiful, healthy, cooing, smiling happy baby boy. They took his history and he hadn’t been sick, hadn’t had fever, and there was nothing visibly wrong with him. So, the resident nicely explained to me that sometimes seizures happen and that it can be normal, so they’re going to send us home. But, he decided to have his boss check in with us too. So, the attending steps in, and same thing… she sees a beautiful, healthy baby boy and his CRAZY mother, and they decide to send us home. They completely blew me off.But… the hospital was s-l-o-w in processing the discharge paperwork, so we sat in the room a long while, and baby Z had a bottle and started to get sleepy. I had realized that the past 2 seizures that I had seen had been right before he was about to fall asleep. I remembered the telephone conversation with the on-call nurse who just happened to mention to me to try to get a video of it to show the doctors. So, as I sat (in the ER), I rocked my sweet baby and had my cell phone video camera ready.Then, it happened. His little eyes locked up and to the right, and his little right arm locked out and sort of twitched. As soon as it started, I pushed the call button for the nurse, and I started the video. By the time the nurse came in, it was almost over, but he saw the tail end of it. Then he saw that I had a video. He watched the video, then took my phone to show the doctors. Then, all of a sudden, I had a whole lot of people in our little emergency room, and they started really checking him over. Because he was such a healthy little guy, that’s what made them concerned about the seizures.It wasn’t long before we were admitted and moved to the neurology ward. That’s why our on-call pediatrician had told us to go to TCH in the med-center. Because if it was neurological, they have a whole floor and a whole team of pediatric neurologists to help him.You can see the video of this seizure here (but please note that the shaking is not him, it was me trying to get his attention because at the time I didn’t know exactly what was happening or what to do):

Some pics of our hospital stay:

Baby Z after being admitted to the neurology ward at Texas Children’s Hospital

BabyZ after getting surprises from his Grandma, Grandpa, Aunt, Uncle and cousins…

BabyZ in a hospital gown, still smiley. I wish I had known we wouldn’t have much longer to enjoy that smile… 😦

Artwork by big sis to decorate the hospital room